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Thoughts...

I don't really have any intentions of what this note will be about, but I can't stop a billion thoughts running through my head at the moment, and feel like I should write them down to kind of organize them in my head...

Now, contrary to how it usually is, this mental chaos isn't necessarily bad... Usually when I have to "organize my thoughts" it's because I'm thinking about stuff and I'm really upset by them...

But that's not really what it's like right now. I'm actually in a pretty awesome mood, and just feel like writing. Haha. :)

UM. But what to write about?

I'm kind of in a "deep-thinking" mood...

Maybe it's the nice weather, or maybe it's just because I've had a pretty awesome week... But as I sit here at the computer I can't help but praise God for my life. And I'm sitting her looking back on my past, and how things used to be... And I feel like I should share my thoughts.

People think that just because I'm such a positive person, that my life is super positive as well... And they're wrong... I know some people have been through a whole lot more than I have, but that gives no means to belittle the few bad things I've been hit with...

I just want everyone to know that I'm a positive person because I CHOOSE to be a positive person... As some of you may have heard me say before; Being happy isn't a product of circumstance, it's a CHOICE that you make. It's a product of YOUR attitude and YOUR outlook.

In no way am I trying to discredit the things you've all been through... In fact, I'm telling you that it's totally fine for you to have crappy days... You don't have to be happy EVERY day. I have days where I feel like crap, just like anyone else.

This isn't about being happy... It's about being joyful. And being grateful for the life you have.

Happy is a temporary emotion that people seem to misinterpret. But joyful is about being glad that you're alive, even when your not happy. It IS possible to be sad and joyful at the same time. Trust me.

I feel like I'm rambling here, and I'm kinda hungry... So I'm gonna end it on this:

Every life has a purpose. Each and every one of you were created to do wonderful things. Don't let your self-pity get in the way of your potential. CHOOSE to be joyful, and don't let the bad days outweigh the good.

Do whatever you can to find the silver-lining, and work on training yourself to focus on that. Because once you change your perspective, I promise you, you can learn to be content.

And once you're content with what you have... You will be blessed with more.

Hebrews 13:5 "Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, 'Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.'"

Jeremiah 29:11 "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'"

Prom Date, Please... Shaken, Not Stirred.

PROM.

Yep.  Prom.

Can you believe Julian Williams is actually going to prom?  Ha.

Tried on/picked up my tux yesterday.

Bein' dressed up like that felt weird and unusual to me.  Kinda made me feel like James Bond.  I'm gonna see if Cati's school will allow me to bring a silenced handgun to keep in my inside coat pocket.

You never know what's gonna go down at a high school prom...

Anybody know of anyone who can effectively transform a watch into a laser, tazer, or tranquilizer?  Can never be too careful...

Okay... So...  After prom is over, Cati and I are driving up to Duluth for a youth retreat called "Spring Blitz."  The rest of the group is going Friday morning, so we'll be missing out on pretty much the entire first day, but it should be lotsa fun.

Let's see...

What else is happening?

Oh yeah.  We're moving in May.

I know.  Insane.

We got a call on Easter Sunday informing us that the house we're in sold, and that the closing date will be May 14th.

Where to?

No idea.

Haha.  We're thinking and hoping that we might end up moving back to Elk River.  I would love that because that's the mid-point between my friends in Monticello and my girlfriend in Ramsey.

PLUS.

It has a skatepark.  And I REALLY miss the Elk River skatepark, and all my friends there.

So pray that we get Elk River.

Okay?

Okay.

Thanks.

I'm gonna go skate outside.

BYE.

Free skate stuff?

That's right. 

Free.

Skate.

Stuff.

Sounds awesome, I know.

And it's for real.

If you go to www.subpublic.com/win-skate-stuff, you can enter a weekly contest to win a skateboard deck.  I won one about 2 weeks ago, and it arrived last Thursday

You have to have a www.twitter.com account, but that's nothing, since that's free.

Every Monday night they post a video, and ask a question about it.  You're the first to get the question right, you win a board.  That simple.  You don't even have to know anything, just how to use google.  Right now there's less than 500 people, so your chances of winning are pretty high.  Just head on over there and enter. :)

Thanks a lot, Marcus, and everyone else at subpublic.  I can't wait to shred this thing. :D

25 things about me. (as seen on facebook)

I tried to be as deep and as honest as possible. It was hard.
25 is alot.

1. I'm a very joyful person. Some people think that means I'm always happy. But I have crappy days just like any other person. And I have times when I am unhappy. But I keep the most of my time finding the best in any situation.
I just don't let the crappy days affect how I'm going to feel when a good day gets thrown my way.

2. I have very high self-esteem, and I don't care about what other people think about me, for the most part.

However, a whole lot of things that a normal, non-self-confident person wouldn't feel insecure about, I feel insecure about. And I HATE it.

Because people all see me as this kid who just doesn't care what other people think, and expect me to be able to do all the crap I feel stupid doing.

3. I decided at the beginning of this that I was going to post my deepest facts, and be as thorough as possible... But I'm already wondering if I really want to...

4. Most of what I say come out in inexplicable noises.

5. I'm an extrovert. But I'm also pretty sensitive too. It's a weird combo, I know. But I'm extremely happy with my personality combination.

6. I think dancing is incredibly stupid. (with the exception of slow-dancing or breakdancing. And others I'm sure, but clubbing is soooo incredibly stupid to me)

7. I'm totally fine with talking and doing stuff in front of large groups, as long as It isn't planned.

I don't really know how to explain it, but it's easier to be spontaneously silly.
I think it's because when it's planned, people are expecting something from me, and my biggest insecurity, i think, is not being able to deliver what people expect of me. But when it's spontaneous, they aren't expecting anything. I can just do it and surprise them. And they'll think it's hilarious, or they'll roll their eyes. But at least I didn't let down any expectations.
^My stage fright doesn't really help with that either.

8. I LOVE to read. For some reason that's wierd to people, but If I have a good book, I'll spend hours wandering around my house with my head in the pages.
I enjoy suspenseful books.
I love reading a book late at night, alone in my room, and having to take a second to stop. Pull the book away. And take a break for my pulse to slow.
Murder mysteries are awesome because usually they have that suspense.
Throw in a twist at the end, and I'll friggin' explode.
Thr3e, by Ted Dekker, is the best book in the world.

9. I'm just now realizing how big of a number 25 can be...

10. My grandpa Wayne died 2 years and one day ago, and in the 5 or so years he was my grandpa, he taught me EXACTLY what I wanna be to my grandchildren some day.
I loved him so much. And I didn't realize how much until he passed.

This might sound ridiculous but I'm gonna make myself type it:

11. Sometimes I feel guilty about how quickly my grieving ended. I know it's dumb, but It's hard to convince myself that I truly loved him that much, and still got over his death so quickly.
Part of it is because I know I'll see him again someday... But... I dunno. It's really hard to explain.
It's been long enough that I can't recall the way his voice sounded... And that makes me sad. He made such a big impression on my life, and I want to remember everything about him. The fact that I can't remember his voice means that the memory is slowly slipping. I know I'll always remember him, but how much of him?

12. I love each and every person I've ever talked to. It's another awesome part of my personality. There is no one I hate... And there are few I dislike. But I try to show love to everyone I meet.

13. My family means so much to me, and I don't know how other teenagers make it without memories like the ones I have.

14. My best friends, and pretty much the rest of my friends too :P fit into my "family" category. They mean just as much, and I know I can count on them to be there when I need them.

15. I'm a hugger, and I'm not afraid to tell another guy that I love him.

16. I believe in God. My life is built around the basic christian faith. I don't know a WHOLE lot about the bible, but what I do know, I believe very strongly in.

17. It's hard to make me cry...
In the past 7 -8 months, I've cried a total of 3 or 4 times (not counting laughing until I cry).
I haven't cried because of PHYSICAL pain for over 3 years.
I've never cried because of a book, movie, or song.
Apparently my family thinks I cried at the end of pay-it-forward, but I would swear on my life that I didn't. That's just not something I can deny without people automatically assuming that I'm lying... :\
I wish so badly that I could cry during movies. I get to the point where I can feel the emotion, and I might even get a little choked up, but I've never actually cried.

18. I love singing, and I've been told on a few occasions that I have a good voice. I won't sing for you if you ask, because again... You're expecting something of me. But if a song comes on that I like, I won't be able to keep myself from singing to it.

19. For most of my life I've been known as the single, fun-loving, doesn't-want-to-be-tied-down-by-a-relationship kind of guy. (Some people even had suspicions that I might be gay. lmao. XD)
But in the last 6 months, I've learned what it feels like to be truly connected to someone. The relationship I'm in now doesn't tie me down in ANY way. And my girlfriend is my best friend FIRST. (I have two others, don't worry Justin ;D) If our relationship were to end right now, I can be 100% positive that we would stay friends.
I have someone that means the world to me, and I honestly don't think I could find anyone better for me.

20. The best week of my life was in Mississippi, July of August 2008.
So many things happened that week that I will never forget.
My life changed so much, and my walk with God was FINALLY in a straight path.
My best friend got saved.
And I met people who have become my new best friends.
And I came home with a really hot new girlfriend ;D

I've never wished for anything as much as I wish I could go back and relive that week.


21. My other two best friends are Taylor and Justin. (I didn't forget about ya :D)
They're the best friends I could possibly ask for, and they're extremely unique. I don't know what I'd do without one or the other. The three of us are like peas in a pickle.

22. I'm one of the very few christian's who aren't afraid to say things like "BOOBS." ;D

23. I am extremely passionate about my hobbies.
You've never seen me as excited as I am when I land a trick I've been working on for days/weeks/months.
And you've never seen me more more motivated than I am when I get an amazing idea for a script to write.

24. Making people laugh is the best thing ever. The way it feels to put a smile on someone's face is beyond anything I could possibly imagine. Especially if that person really needs it.

25. I'm Julian Williams. I'm a loving, sensitive, self-confident, self-conscious, funny, joyful, 17 year old boy who's in love with an amazing girl and who couldn't live without his friends and family. And someday... You're going to see my movies on your TV screen.

LINGERING FINGER:

For those of you who don't know, "Lingering Finger" is the name my friends and I have come up with for our short films that we make.  (LINGERING FINGER PRODUCTIONS)

www.youtube.com/loser23jtw

Now, I know I have to explain this because if I don't, my mom will eat me.

The thing is, Lingering Finger isn't really as dirty as it sounds... well... I guess that depends on your definition of dirty... 

Let me explain.

Once upon a time, my brother, Josiah, and I spent a weekend with our church's youth group at the wonderful TROUT LAKE CAMP.

It was about 12:30 or so, after the yearly over-sized bonfire, and we were just getting settled into bed.

Everyone was chatty, as could be expected with a room full of teenagers who get to spend the entire weekend with their friends.  John, our youth pastor, told us to settle down and go to bed, and after a few more minutes, the room was finally quiet.  Unfortunately, John just HAD to say one more thing before we went to sleep.  And idea, a thought rather, of the deepest meaning, for us to sleep on.

"Okay, Just one more thing and then we're going to bed,"  He said.  "You know how they have the pink breast cancer ribbons?  What color would they be if they had ribbons for Prostate Cancer?"

The rest of us giggled, and eventually the room was quiet again.  It was time for sleep, after all.

But then Greg, one of our youth leaders, decided he would answer this question aloud.

"Brown and hairy," He said proudly.

The room burst with laughter and for the next two hours we joked about if we were to create our own "Prostate Awareness Program."  We came up with different celebrities that could support us, and decided on each commercial ending with "Have you given yourself the finger?"

At some point we came up with the line, "Don't linger while using the finger." and that became our new "motto."

Anyways, about 3 months later, my friends and I were sitting in the youth room trying and trying to come up with a name for our movies.

We came up with a few, but none that we could ALL agree on.  Then, suddenly, I thought of one that everyone would love:

"LINGERING FINGER!!" I shouted excitedly.  Everyone laughed and it was agreed that that would be our new name for our youtube channel.

As of right now, I'm working on the post-production (EDITING AND SUCH) of a movie we've already filmed.  It's alright, but not really anything to get excited about.

If you want something to get excited about, I'll be happy to let you know that Justin and I are working on writing a serious movie.  As of right now it's all in Pre-production, and all we have so far is a rough outline... But I can tell that if this turns out the way I have it all planned out in my head, it's gonna be so awesome.

I can't really say when you can expect this to be done because I don't want to give myself a deadline.  I'm going to spend as much time on this as needed so I can get the best of the best out of my brain.  So far I've spent a crapload of time on it, and I'm still working on an outline.

What is it about?  I can't tell you. HA!

I CAN say, however, that it's going to be a serious movie, with serious acting, some action, and a cool twist at the end that will have you thinking "OHHHHHH!!"

I'll keep my progress on that posted as new developments come up.

JULIAN OUT.

-Julian

ABOUT ME.

Hello and welcome to my very first blog.  Glad you all could make it.  First off, I'd like to ask that everyone please turn off all cell phones and pagers, as not to disrupt the consistency of this blog.  This may also ruin the viewing pleasure of those around you, thank you.

I'm Julian.  I'm 16 years old (for less than a month longer :D).  I enjoy long walks on the beach and deep, meaningful conversations about farts.

I have an awesome family, BOTH parents, 4 bros, and a big "sister".

I have the best friends in the world, who are some of the only people who truly understand my retarded antics.

I have an amazing girlfriend, who also fits into the above category.

My biggest passion, as of now, is filmmaking.  My friends and I started making movies (Officially, I used to make a bunch of movies on a crappy little camcorder when I was little) a little over a year ago, and now it's all I can think about.  In any event, I will imagine it in my head as an intense movie trailer, or as a montage.

So if you've got time, be sure to check out our youtube channel:

www.youtube.com/loser23jtw

I'm co-director/editor/co-writer/actor/cameraguy/producer 

But my biggest job is the editor.

So any effects you see were done by me.  and pretty much every video was cut and placed and edited by me, as well.

My second passion is skateboarding.

I've been skateboarding for 3 and a half years, and I mostly skate street.  My favorite tricks are the odd ones you don't see everyone do.

My best trick on flat ground, I'd have to say, is a fakie shuvit rewind.  Mostly because I have it down perfect and can do it consistenly.

The reason I skate isn't to get sponsored, or to look cool in front of other people.  I skate for me.  I do it because, first off, it's friggin fun.  There's nothing like the feeling of landing a trick you've been working on all day.

But most of all, I skate because it's the one time that I can focus on only one thing.  I don't have to worry about when I have to go get a job, or focus on getting my license.  I can skate, and ONLY skate.  My mind isn't worried about next week, it's worried about RIGHT NOW.  It's focused on my feet, the board beneath them, and that handrail in front of me.

I believe in God, and he's my number one priority.  I struggle everyday to keep him first on the list, above everything I just talked about.  I try to share any wisdom or revelations he's shared with me, with others around me... But mostly, I won't talk much about my faith unless you ask. I wanna be your friend first.  So my beliefs don't end up scaring you off.

So that's a little about me.  I'll be on later to focus solely on single topics, such as what projects I'm working on pertaining to filmmaking, or about my friends or something.

SO... stay tuned?

~Julian